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Meet Little Billy: The World’s First Cartoon Character with a Neurological Disorder.

Hello my beautiful readers! Today, I wanted to share something amazing with you that is very close to my heart.

Not too long ago, I sort of came out about having been diagnosed with Tourette’s Syndrome. It was something I was open about, but never really announced to everyone. One night, after a particularly difficult shift at work, I realized that I really wanted people to know what I was going through. I wanted everyone to understand how difficult it made things, especially my passion for drawing.¬†I wasn’t looking for pity or attention, I just wanted folks to be a little more educated about what it means to have a disorder like mine.

When I posted my story, it seemed like everyone had encouraging things to say and even wanted to help. My mom’s boyfriend was digging around and he read about an animator who also had Tourette’s! I almost couldn’t believe my eyes, so I did a little digging of my own.

Chance Raspberry had a childhood that was similar to mine in some ways. He was the odd one out. The weird kid. He loved cartoons, and had a deep passion for creation and expression. He knew he wanted to be one of the minds behind the scenes one day.

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When he was 8, Chance was diagnosed with Tourette’s Syndrome. This disorder was newly discovered at the time, and very little was known about it. But instead of letting it hinder him, the little boy continued to chase his passion. He drew almost every day. Eventually, through his school California State University, he landed an internship at Fox Animation Studios. Later,¬†with some hard work, he got hired to be an animator for the Simpsons.

Chance is perhaps best known for his animation at Fox, but right now he is working on becoming known for something else. Something amazing.

Little Billy is a cartoon that Chance has been working on for about 15 years now, animated in the classic style of the Looney Tunes and filled with 80’s nostalgia. He is the first cartoon character to have a rare neurological condition, called UHS, (or Ultra Hyper-Sensitivity). The condition is fictitious but based on the symptoms of real disorders, so kids with any syndrome can relate!¬†Growing up, no one understood or had the problems I did, and I didn’t know what was wrong with me. I know other kids dealing¬†with a disorder¬†feel the same way. Little Billy is going to change all that.

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The importance of representation on TV is real. Our first Disney Princess of color was Tiana in 2009, and since then girls of African descent everywhere no longer have to ask whether they can be princesses too.¬†Drop Dead Diva taught us that size and sexiness do not correlate, and plus sized women don’t have to be¬†goofy sidekicks or props. Little Billy can teach us that people with disorders do not have to be the butt of jokes.¬†He will give the world¬†an opportunity to see¬†what goes on behind closed doors, in the life of a family with a child who has a neurological condition. My own mother was judged for most of my life because everyone thought she was just a bad mom, when in reality I just had more energy and emotion than I knew how to control!

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My not-as-good-as-Chance’s-drawings fan art lol

When I first read about Little Billy, I was overcome with tears and joy. I saw myself in this little boy.¬†The challenges he faces, his energy, sensitivity and demeanor were real in my life. Chance pulled these traits and experiences from his own childhood. When I reached out to him, I really wasn’t sure if he would answer a nobody like me. But he actually cared and asked about my tics. This is how I knew that Little Billy has to happen. Somebody who has gone through what I’ve gone through has overcome the challenges he’s faced, and is pouring his soul into showing other kids that they can overcome too. This is the kind of influence I wish I had early in my life, and the kind of influence kids need right now. And right now, Chance is spending day after day single-handedly animating the pilot episode to bring this project to life. But he needs your support.

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To keep up with all things Little Billy, visit his website! Here you can learn more about the project,¬†watch the trailer,¬†read FAQs and check out Billy’s backstory. And even if you can’t donate¬†now, I highly recommend signing up for the newsletter to keep updated on the release of the pilot. Billy even has his own Facebook Page and Twitter! Go ahead and give him a like, you’ve got more to gain than to lose.

I’m reaching out to all the families who have been misunderstood and judged, the weird kids who have been singled out, and to kind and caring people with love in their hearts. Help us spread the word so that Little Billy will become a household name, and bring everybody one step closer to understanding what Special Needs really means.

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What it’s like to be an Artist Living with Tourette’s Syndrome.

Back when I was still in high school, I was diagnosed with Tourette’s Syndrome.

When most people hear Tourette’s Syndrome they think of someone yelling swear words, like Tourette’s guy. I don’t have a problem with Tourette’s guy, I understand our culture has stereotypes. Sometimes it hurts a little when people make fun of the disorder. I realize that it doesn’t come from hatred, but a lack of education. So let me shed a little light on what it’s like to actually have the symptoms.

When the doctor told me this is the condition I had, I can almost say I was relieved. Relieved that I could finally put a name to what was wrong with me. All the strange stuff I did that didn’t make any sense, like shaking my head back and fourth and violently straightening my elbows.

As relieved as I was to know what was up, it was also a little devastating. I deal with strange and painful tics every day. A tic is a movement my brain makes my body do, like tapping a surface or blinking my eyes really hard. It’s not something that happens automatically, it’s more like an itch. I have to perform the tic. It’s pretty much impossible to control, and believe me I’ve tried.

Besides making every day tasks difficult and making me look like a crazy person sometimes, ticcing has ruined the thing I love to do most. Drawing.

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Whenever I draw, I have a tic where I have to press the pencil really hard into the paper. You¬†can see the dents and dots, and this is why I draw mostly with a tablet. The poor thing has taken a beating, but it’s the only way I can erase my mistakes, carefully. I can’t stop this tic and I’ve had it for years, even before I was diagnosed. I took medicine and that helped for a while, but I couldn’t take it for a long time because that medication had long term effects.¬†I feel like it really stunts my artistic ability and is the thing that saddens me the most. Usually I don’t even finish drawing because I’ve already ruined it.

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I’ve also been through a lot of jobs. The real reason I leave most jobs is because I can’t handle the stress. I know there are a lot of people who have bad anxiety¬†that makes it hard to keep a job, and I can respect that.¬†But I want you to realize that when I’m stressed, the stress manifests itself physically and violently. Sometimes it goes so far that I’m hurting myself. I do not believe in self harm, but I can’t stop my tics.

I’ll give you an example.

Today I had to put in my two weeks at a restaurant I just started working at. There is more than one reason I had to quit. My grandfather is sick, and I want to move in with my grandparents for a little while. This is the reason I gave my work but honestly I am relieved to leave this job. The people are absolutely amazing, but the environment is very fast paced. The stress has gotten me to develop a new, awful¬†tic. They will change sometimes. For a few months I was clacking my teeth together, and it hurt my mouth so bad. When I started this job, I began to shake my legs very hard. I shake them as I sit typing this and I would shake them as I stood at the front of the restaurant and as I walked people to their tables, praying they wouldn’t notice. It hurts so bad to stand and I think I’ve pulled a muscle in my calf. When I sit down to breathe and my coworkers ask me if I’m ok, I’m too ashamed to say that my legs hurt. Everyone’s legs hurt, we’ve all been standing for hours.

I think about how much better I would feel if I could just stop shaking them. But Tourette’s doesn’t work that way. I can’t stop. In fact whenever I think about it I have to perform my tic again. I’m so sore and I wish it could just stay still, and have physical peace wash over me.

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I’ve gone through so many jobs through the years. I worked at a glass shop but whenever I set down a piece of glass on the shelf, I had to set it down harshly because I had this pressure tic. I’d broken a few things this way. I felt bad so that I quit my job there, so I didn’t break any more of the owner’s things. I also worked at a wonderful coffee shop where I pressed the cups very hard against the edge of the coffee pot, and burned myself with hot coffee more than once. These are just some examples of the troubles I’ve had at work.

Hopefully when I move to my grandparents, I will find a job that doesn’t give me as much trouble. But I always say that when I’m job hunting. I don’t feel right about applying for disability because I know there are people out there who¬†are more disabled than I. I wish I could just make art for a living, and have been trying really hard to get my career going. I have no hope for a cure because, for as many people who make fun of the disorder, not enough people have it to expect a cure anytime in the near future.

I’ve always hesitated to post about my condition because I don’t want people to feel sorry for me, and I know we all have our problems that we have to deal with. But¬†this has been on my chest for a long time and I wanted you to know what it’s like to live the life of someone who has Tourette’s syndrome.

Be thankful, you wonderful human being, and stay beautiful and kind. I love you!