depression | Basically Emily

Recently I came off my medication.

I used to think that it was really helping. Then I realized that it was only helping me stay content.

Content with my crappy job and crappy things I was doing to myself. I was really scared to quit, but I did it because I wanted to be free of popping a pill every day and responsible for my own emotions and actions.

I’m happy to say that I am happy. I’m not spiraling into a deep pit of depression and I’m still alive.

That’s not to say I don’t get really sad every once in a while, but everyone does. I came off and realized how much I hated what I was doing with my life, and started taking steps to change it. Started taking responsibility for my own happiness. This is power.

Medication can really help some people, but it’s definitely not for everyone. Think about it. You have a job you don’t like and you’re not enjoying life. You tell the doctor you’re sad, and he prescribes you antidepressants. Now you are content. Content with your crappy job and your empty life. Problem solved, right?

No. You need to sit down and think about what really matters to you, and take steps to make it happen. I love art. I’ve always loved art, it’s my passion, and I want to be a renowned comic artist. Am I making that happen?

Yes.

I challenge you to reevaluate your life. Even if you are not on any medication. Do you really love where you are now? I don’t mean like I mean love. If you don’t then change it. Chase your passions. It’s what we were put on this earth to do. That tugging in your gut, the love you feel when you think about it? That’s why it’s so important.

Tell me, are you really happy? Or are you just pretending to be?

Leaving it all behind